Empty

I know I said I would try to do a cheerful playlist, but not happening. We had a memorial today for Dr. Michael J. Kiskis and it made me reflect on my whole life. Not only was it about the loss of an amazing man for me, but how in a week I am losing so much of what I hold dear. My life is changing and I have so many mixed feelings about it. I am going to let the playlist speak for itself, but expect more reflections soon...

Playlist if you continue

People and Love and Plants-New Socks

This song is all about death, of not only people, but love as well. What better way to start a playlist than with a song about death.

I'll never die

I will live forever

Never see the other side

Time to Pretend-MGMT

I've been think a lot about why we are here and the value of life. Why do we do so much pointless bullshit? Why do we surround ourselves with people we don't care about? Why does it matter?

But there is really nothing, nothing we can do

Love must be forgotten, life can always start up anew

Garden of Simple-Ani DiFranco

This song continues on with the theme of purpose and the value of our lives. What are we doing to this world and to our humanity? I wish so badly that I could go to the Garden of Simple. This song is one of the most powerful songs I've ever heard. I wish I could live it.

we were standing in a garden

and i had a machine that made silence

it just sucked up the whole opinionated din

and there were no people on the payroll

and there were no monkeys on our backs

and i said, show me what you look like

without skin

Down in the Valley-The Head and the Heart

This song makes me melt. It calls for a simple life, one that I crave.

These are the places you will find me hidin'

These are the places I will always go

I am on my way

I am on my way back to where I started

3rd Planet-Modest Mouse

The universe is shaped exactly like the earth

if you go straight long enough you'll end up where you were.

Century Plant-Company (Camp)

This is a song from one of my favorite musicals. The movie is about a group of high school kids discovering who they are and excepting that of themselves and others. I love how innocent the song is...yet so wise.

Hey! Do you wanna come out

and play the game?

It's never too late

Forces of the Unseen-Cloud Cult

Another track from Light Chasers, which is a powerful album as a whole and is best enjoyed in that fashion. 

We have so much energy 

that you can't see.

We'll blow right through it.

I Do-Lisa Loeb

This song reflects a lot of frustration I've been feeling, but at the same time creates a kind of unity. While it is a break-up song, I still think it fits.

I will be ignored

I will be denied

I could be erased

I could be brushed aside

I will get scared, and I will get shoved down

June-Lucy Schwartz

I'm still in love with Lucy Schwartz, she is an amazing musician and here is another song of hers to prove it.

And it feels like winter in the middle of June

Empty House-Priscilla Ahn

Dusty shelves, stains in the rug

Broken door to mend

Here is where they used to lie

and wanted it all to end

Keep Breathing-Ingrid Michaelson

How do we get through all the pain and suffering in the world? One breath at a time...

All that I know is I'm breathing.

All I can do is keep breathing.

All we can do is keep breathing.

My Sundown-Jimmy Eat World

This song is the perfect closing, it really wraps up all the feelings I am trying to portray.

I wanna be so much more than this